It’s been almost three days since you passed away and I haven’t had the mood or the inspiration to write this. I’ve been thinking a lot about the circumstances around your death. We didn’t know each other except for two handshakes but, for sixteen years, I’ve been aware of you and the rest of the band. This three days I’ve passed from don’t believe anything to accept that you are no longer with us. I think I owe you an apologize. We are all wondering how it was possible for you to reach that point. We couldn’t believe it. I believe that in your lyrics you were exposing your demons. Instead, we felt your lyrics in our way and made it personal. Since your death I listened, read and felt every song in a different way. Maybe it’s not your way, but I think it’s more close to what you want to transmit us. Because of that I wanted to say sorry. Maybe you didn’t have all the help that you needed and we could do more to make you feel that you can beat your demons. Or at least, beat them one more time.
Anyway, this is my apology.
Sincerely yours, Víctor. Linkin Park’s fan since 2001 and forever.